Tuesday, November 15, 2011

'Coz we end up forcing a smile..

Being optimistic is so difficult, folks! When you are feeling down and out, you cannot force yourself to plaster a smile across the face just because protocol says so!!

That feeling when the heart feels all clogged and thunderstorm-y and the world expects you to be cheerful. What crap? But then emotions were meant to be felt in a certain way, right. That's why there are nine of them. They didn't categorize and define navarasas for kicks!

Trying to be positive and being positive are two different things.
I want to be happy. Everyone does. What is new in that? How to shake off sadness like magic?

1. Inhale nitrous oxide
2. Do laughter yoga
(I have tried none of them)

I am angry all the time. I mean most of the time. I want to shout at the top of my lungs to express anger in a positive way (sad thing, I NEVER get to do that. Not even in my room coz 'what will the parents/neighbors/ tom dick harry think' type thought crops up!) Bah! No outlet for anger. Even if I end up shouting a teeny weeny bit, the world has this amazing ability to point fingers at ME and blame me for my problems! Silly people. Seems like I am the only one who has read this news piece where they claimed bottling up anger can lead to dangerous diseases in the long run.

Thank God I didn't end up becoming an air hostess! Meh.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

When YOU happen

When YOU happen,
It will be surreal.
It will be unstated.

When YOU happen,
We won't be shouting from the rooftops.
We won't be proving our worth to each other.

When YOU happen,
We won't be constantly reassuring each other.
We won't be saying it all the time.

When YOU happen,
It will be effortless.
It will be magical..

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

The fish that climbs trees

"If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." –Albert Einstein.

Read this somewhere. And it has got me thinking. Why? 
'Coz this so applies to my life. Ha Ha! (Yeah, stop grinning. It ain't funny!!)

The fish is trying to jump out of the coffee cup or what?
Now go back to what you were doing before you landed here.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Will I? Will I not?

It's been 6 months here and I haven't quit yet!! Well, that IS an achievement. :)
The last time I sticked around with an organization for 6 months was when I was 19 and  working in that big shot of a hospitality chain. And after that, I've never had the patience to cross that first 6 months window.
Now will I stick around for another 6 months to cover that 1 year window? THAT only time will tell. Ha!
Blame it on my impulsive self, I take decisions on the spur of the moment. All planning goes down the drains, usually. Now I've this picture in my head which shows me shouting at my boss, throwing away papers and stuff, creating a scene in the office and then quitting for once and for all (Trust me, it's not even remotely funny! Though it may be ironically funny!) :|
Let me ask you a question- Event management sounds sexy, right? Now Do I share the same views- Take a guess?
Anyway, I've got work to do. I shouldn't be eating away into the time which requires me to do productive work for the company, right? So here I go. See you around?

P.S.- Do people still read my blog? Drop in a mail and say YES you do. Bye..

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Bits and pieces

Almost six months since I last updated this blog! Sigh.
A lot of things have happened in the last few months. Yes Yes- A lot!
New job happened. Not sure whether this is what I want to do. The problem is, I want to do so many things at one go that I don't know where to start from.
Till a few months ago, the idea of moving out of Delhi and setting base in a different city excited me. Not anymore. I've come to realize that this is where I want to be.
I've also been experimenting. Details later.
I also have a huge list of to-do things. Different lists for different purposes: ambition lists, priorities lists, shopping lists, 5 year plan lists etc. :)
Why do I feel that I'm hugely messed up in my head? When things get weird, I end up reminding myself that it's just a phase. The thing is, it happens a lot. ...

P.S- This teeny weeny post comes out of sheer desperation to update something on this space! More coming soon..!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I think. I talk. You listen. You forget!

Mindless rambling ahead

How do you plan things? Have you ever wondered if you had not been behaving the way you were all this while, how else would you've behaved? Sometimes you think A in your head, but B comes out of your mouth. You don't do it intentionally, something, like a force makes you do it. I don't know what it is, but you want to say something, but when the thoughts transform into words, it ends up as something else. Strange but true! Not every emotion, not every thought can be rightly expressed. You may want to term them as inexplicable feelings. The funny thing about them is, in your head you're pretty sure of what you want to say but when it comes down to verbalizing it, you end up not being sure!

Have you tried speaking to yourself? As in, shutting up yourself in a room and having a heart to heart chat with your own self, whenever you feel down and out? If you haven't, then try it. It's so therapeutic. You feel the stress melting away into nothingness. When you think about your problems in your mind, the so called problems have this tendency to attach wings by itself and swell up into bigger monsters. And you don't even realize, all this is happening in your head and not in reality. That's when talking to yourself helps. You may just wanna record your ramblings in your phone and then listen to it afterwards. Trust me, you'll just laugh it off! So all that you thought was weird ends up seeming trivial.

Have you noticed, how everyone keeps telling you about having your life sorted out. That you need to have certain goals in life to make your life seem worthwhile, to you. What if you don't know about yourself? What if, you're one of those individuals who have a lot going on in their mind and picture them clearly in their head but still cannot get down to turning them into reality? Does it happen with you? Or do you belong to that category of people who have their whole life charted out in their diary? You're not sure, where to start from, what path to take?

Life is funny. Life is weird. You have one life to live. One fine day, you wake up, sit down and notice where you're headed to. Having your life figured out is perhaps, the most difficult things to do. Have you figured it out? Do you believe in taking each day as it comes and discovering new things about yourself? Have I figured it out yet? No. Things are jumbled up in my mind. There's so much to do, so much to learn, so many moments to live.

I didn't intend this post to sound like just another 'life post'. The other day, FB told me that I used the word 'life' 13 times in my status updates last year!! And the word 'people' 17 times. Gosh! I kept wondering, when did I become so philosophical? Talking about the aspects of life is, to some extent, directly proportional to philosophy. Phew! I need the spice back in my posts. Guess I should feed myself with some PJs to knock some humor in my head. By the way, I'm more active on twitter. I keep doling out funny one-liners every now and then out there, atleast that's what the people say. =)

When I'm not here, you can always find me here. People keep asking me whether I've stopped writing and I want to tell them, "Hell No!". Then I realized, you cannot always get away with excuses like 'writer's block' (even though that may be true), every single time, coz that makes you feel as if you're some great writer and people have been dying to read your next post!! I've been tweeting like a maniac, you see. *shy school girl grin*
See you around, very soon, I promise. :]

Pic Courtesy: Pilfered from Google