Monday, April 28, 2008

misunderstood !

Why am i often misunderstood...be it friends,family or even a stranger. No matter how hard i try, i end up getting misunderstood. So many times has it happened that i meant something else but what i ultimately conveyed was exactly the opposite. Just a few days back, i stumbled upon an article on numerology in the newspaper. It said that people who are number 4 are often misunderstood for they are original and creative in their ideas..sigh!! N yes, i am a number 4....which means people are not as creative as i am or maybe I am too difficult for them to understand !! :D ..hmm, some solace there :) Atleast now i can pacify myself that it's actually not my fault, it's the numbers out there which are at fault.

Now i can safely say what i want to without being conscious of the fact that somebody will get judgemental...for atleast, the numerologist understands me!!

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

mom , me & 'padhai'

Had a long discussion today with mom about how the education system is ruining us. I have had hundreds of discussions on the same topic before , but somehow this seems to be my favourite subject(ah,poor me!!). Now i feel a big void in my life, for the fact that i never participated bigtime in any extra-curricular activities in school(am talking about major participation in sports,dance etc.),to the level that could be boasted of or for that matter have numerous certificates or awards to my credit. Whatever little i did apart from studies in school was basically small-scale(now difficult to go into details!!) .


What I get out of the whole system is that no matter,how intelligent or dumb you were throughout ur school life,it actually doesn't matter in the long run.What actually matters is what marks are displayed in ur XII marksheet. Literally ,ur whole life hangs on those numerals in that paper. Ofcourse,the educationists won't agree with me, for they will blabber about how u can make ur life better even if u don't get decent marks n blah blah n turn out to be successful. Aargh these lectures bug me. Now why am I cribbing about it now-it's just coz inspite of being a topper throughout my school life , I screwed up my XII exams...(sigh!)...& the ghost still haunts me ;)

Interestingly, my undergraduate college admission was totally based on my debating experience in school and not purely on my XII result!!(How IRONIC!!)


Now back to my discussion with mom(she now literally sleeps through the topic,for this may be the same topic nth time)...but kya kare aadat se majboor..lol. So i was telling her how school-life as a kid should not be be spent burdened with books but enjoying the joys of childhood, playing, 'masti-maaring' n what not.... puhleez no studies. Why to give unecessary burden on li'l minds?? Infact i have seen numerous cases who were dumb throughout school, but came out with flying colours in XII...the kind of kids who were busy playing forever, suddenly became serious in the last moment.

Moral of the story ;)

Concentrate on extra-curriculars in school & work hard only in ur XII, coz that's what matters ultimately. Extra-curriculars like music,dance,sports will be there with u throughout ur life & will also help in future admissions even if u don't have great scores in XII.. but the bookish,boring stuff in school...oh,never...it just filters out of the mind once out of school.



Thursday, April 3, 2008

"Careless Whisper"

One of my favourite evergreen tracks. The more i listen to it,the more i fall in love with it again n again. I feel as if i share a deep connection with this beautiful song (i maybe foolish but something like a past-life connection,considering the fact that it was created before i was born).

The lyrics-wonderful, rendition-mindblowing, music-amazing. I really don't know why but whenever i listen to it i feel so emotional(for it has the ability to bring tears to my eyes) just for its beautiful lyrics.. But hey,don't consider me to be an emotional fool...no worries,the song is awesome.
Cheers to George Michael :)

..I can now just go on & on about it... Better listen to it..

The lyrics:-

Careless whisper
I feel so unsure
as I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
as the music dies,
something in your eyes
calls to mind the silver screen
and all its sad good-byes

I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Time can never mend
the careless whisper of a good friend
to the heart and mind
ignorance is kind
there's no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find

I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste this chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Never without your love

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say

We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But no one's gonna dance with me
Please stay

And I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

(Now that you're gone) Now that you're gone
(Now that you're gone) What I did so wrong
that you had to leave me alone